Triumph

Two years ago I posted a blog about Alana being diagnosed with breast cancer. Well, two years have past and many rough moments she needed to overcome but she is healthy and well. She is the strongest person I know. She remained positive, kept up to date emails to close friends and family including myself and I cannot be happier for her. She wrote a book to allow others battling breast cancer as well as anyone who wants to learn about the struggles one goes through. Her book is published and on the shelves of many bookstores. I have so much respect for her and I am grateful for having her in my life. She has truly demonstrated how strong a person can be and that with a lot of support, a positive attitude and strength that you can truly do anything you set your mind too, even if its battling cancer. She just had her first book signing. I suggest to everyone to read her true words of wisedom. "Chemosabe" This woman is a true inspiration!

The World

I want to go and travel the world, more now then ever before. I have a friend in Italy and a friend in Kenya right now, my other friend is in England and two of my best friends just got back, one from Africa and one from Australia. The more I hear about their adventures and the cultures they were exposed to the more I want to find out for myself. I don’t want to teach there, I don’t want to go to school there, I simply want to travel. I do no want to go alone, I would like one other person with me and just backpack. I want to go to a place were English is not their main language. I would like to rise to a challenge and learn to navigate my way through the cities.  I feel like I am very naive to the world around me and in order for my to full understand I need to be submerged into it. I want to experience culture shock and see how others live in other parts of the world. I would like to leave tomorrow but in reality that cannot happen, since I do not have the supplies or money to do so. I am saying within the next three years, I would like this dream to come true. I am going to be more aware of my spending and try to buckle down and save. I am done fantasying and wishing to travel. I am going to ACTUALLY travel.

Distance…

They say distance makes the heart grow fonder..
I am not necessarily disagreeing with this statement but it is difficult.
I don't know how exactly to descirbe this feeling.
I am sitting on the train right now, knowing that I will not see Him until the 2nd of december.
Twelve Days.
You would think that would be easy, but for me it is hard.
I have only been apart from him for 1.5 hours and I already miss him.
Is this love?
I am not too sure but if it is, I like it. I love the feeling of being in love.
I love waking up knowing someone is with me, maybe not physically but emotionally.
It is nice knowing someone else is thinking about you the second they wake up and continuously throughout the day.
For once in my life, I am not alone.
Nor am I living life on my own. I am going through life with Him, making decisions together.
I have never been in a relationship before but I do know that this relationship is strong.
I know this is what a healthy relationship consists of. If it is not a healthy relationship then I am I don't know what is then?
I have come into this in full force and I am not planning on changing anything in the near future.
I have put my heart on the line and I do not regret that.
I would not give anything to replace this feeling.
It's true when they say, you know when you're in love.
It is a feeling I cannot compare anything too.
I do not regret anything that has happened in this relationship and I plan to keep it that way.
I love him with all my heart forever and always.
<3

My friend told me this the other day...

Smile through the disappointments of life, that in doing so, they may become your greatest triumphs

Alana.

There is one specific person that has had a huge impact on my life.

She is...

Smart, successful and beautiful.
Mother, Daughter and Teacher
Confident, Strong and Positive

She has reached out to me and has helped me become who I am today. I look up to her and go to her when I am in need of advice. She has inspired me to become a teacher and I haven't doubted anything she has ever told me. She is strong and confident in anything and everything that she does.

Tonight I found out she has been diagnosed with breast cancer. I prayer for her and her family that she will overcome this. She told me " I am pretty open about it I guess because I want others to know that it's possible. I am really, really positive about it and I am confident that I am going to beat this thing. It will be a bit of a rough year, but it will make me stronger of course!"

She is my idol and I thank her for everything she has done for me.

Please keep her in your prayers, that she will beat this thing.

High School, now just Merely Memories...

Last night I talked to someone I hadn't talked to in a very long time. We started with small talk but then we began talking about high school and how so much has changed since then.

It got me wondering, what would it be like if I went back to high school tomorrow? What would change? Who would be there with me?

I have a diffcult time adjusting to the fact that life goes on. Even when you are so happy right were you are, you have to hop on the train and continue with your life. Time does not stop for anybody. I have passed this part of my life and I can honestly say I enjoyed every second of it. It truly was the best four years of my life (right now).

As hard as I try what once was, will never be again. High school is just merely memories now. The students, teachers, assignments...

Each person has moved on and are now doing bigger and better things.

As hard as I try it is IMPOSSIBLE to stay in touch with everyone you would like to stay in contact with. Facebook and other social networking sites make this alot easier but still does not make it possible. There are so many people whom I haven't talked to or even seen since June 29, 2009.

Since graduation we have had one death, Rielly. I check her facebook page every now and again and see comments from my fellow classmates. It is very sad her life had to end at such a young age but it also makes me happen to see everyone come together again and mourn with one another.

It is time for me to accept that high school will never be again. I am at the point in my life where I am a strong independent woman who needs to take initative in starting my own life.

Each time I come home and visit with my friends and family I wonder when it will be the last. Every time we gather together one less person is there because he/she are still up at school pursuing thier goals. We then have to begin to rely on the bond we created over all the years in order to stay in touch and be able to stay life long friends.

If I Were an Artist...

Jake Coco

"And I could paint you clear
I'd make you graceful
I'd make you beautiful
Cause that's what you are"

100 Random Facts about Myself :)

1. I have my ears pierced
2. I have a gigantic post card collection
3. There are 13 years difference between me and my 5 yr old brother
4. I have been playing baseball for over 15 years
5. I am under 5 feet tall
6. I have schololious
7. I am obsessed with the colour purple
8. I love different languages and trying to speak in them
9. I have a fear of rotten food.
10.I want to learn how to ballroom dance
11.I have only been to one other country USA..
12. I am a clean FREAK.
13. When I laugh I sound like a hyena
14. I love peace signs.
15. I have every type of website you could possibly have (Dailybooth, facebook,
myspace, blog, youtube, aim, etc etc )
16. I can play 5 different instruments
17. I love movie soundtracks.
18. I am friends with my teachers
19. I hate Disney movies
20. I do not like to be alone
21. I think hugs are the best thing in the world
22. I will one day go to Paris and Italy
23. I love black and white pictures.
24. I like to paint abstract things.
25. I still watch Saturday morning cartoons
26. I like to learn to sing songs in different languages
27. I love talking and meeting new people.. hence my obsession with Chat Roulette
28. I have hand sanitizer with me at all times.
29. I have a fear of getting sick.
30. I love scary movies.
31. My clock is always 45 minutes fast.
32. I have to make my bed in order for me to go to bed in it again.
31. When I go to the mall I have to take pictures in the photo booth
32. I wear ‘fake’ glasses
33. I do not like change
34. I was a gymnast for 4 years
35. I plug my nose when i sneeze
36. I enjoy doing cartwheels
37. I have an obsession with swings
38. I am an organized pack rat
39. I do not like roller coasters
40. I enjoy buying movies.
41. I will not fold my shirts, they have to be hanging up.
42. I believe in ghosts, spirits etc.
43. I only wear a specific necklace with my outfits
44. I do not mix and match my outfits.
45. I love to watch lights sparkle on the water.
46. I have never watched a 3D movie
47. I made perfect attendance for 6 years
48. My laugh changes when I am lying on my back.
49. I have never been to a concert
50. I always have 3 books on the go.
51. I flip my pillow over to get to the cold side.
52. I walk on a diagonal.
53. I cannot study when someone is in the same room as me.
54. I am a perfectionist
55. I have a “people i never talk to” group on my msn.
56. I used to climb up door frames when I was younger
57. I thought you could get pregnant from oral sex in grade 11
58. I cannot wink.
59. My right leg with randomly give out and I will fall just walking down the street
60. I have 2 IPODS because I ran out of room on my first one.
61. I do not celebrate my birthday
62. I do not like sand
63. I would rather swim in a chemically enhanced pool then a fish invested lake
64. I love climbing on things
65. I love to dance and move my hips.
66. I love to sing to songs even if I don’t know the words.
67. I do not like any type of bug.
68. I ran out of the butterfly conservatory screaming in tears.
69. I like to cook hot dog octopus’s on the camp fire.
70. I have never smoked anything in my entire life.
71. I work with children who have special needs
73. I love taking pictures.
74. I have wanted to become a teacher ever since i can remember.
75. I played in a concert band for 5 years
76. I enjoy making lists about myself
77. I do not like when my food touches.
79. I love meeting new people.
80. I love to eat pickles cheese and crackers.
81. I have never lost a word search race.
82. I do not like public transportation.
83. I have many random collections.
84. I keep my clothing tags.
85. I am easy to persuade
86. I have never broken a bone
87. I cannot skate backwards
88. I have a difficult time saying goodbye
89. I have the smallest bladder in the world.
90. I listen to EVERY type of music.
91. I am allergic to fur and feathers
92. I love pointless car rides.
93. I was on a bowling team for 3 years.
94. I believe that everything happens for a reason
95. I know the alphabet in sign language
96. I have over 10 different nicknames
97. I did not start wearing makeup until this year. I am turning 19 years old.
98. I can spit really really far.
99. I love to watch musicals.
100. I get attached to things very easily

Your Life.

"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins. "

This quote was on my friend's facebook. I love it. <3

I am not feeling the greatest right now. You know.. when you ask someone a question that you have been contemplating on asking over and over again and you have phrased this question so many times in your head. You finally get enough courage to ask it and then there really is only one anwser you want to hear, the right answer. Then that person answers the question and it is the wrong one, the answer you did not want to hear. Then you start to ask yourself why did you have to ask, you didn't really want to know the true anwser.

Gotcha?!?!

Why do people get enjoyment out of other people's misery?

Something great comes along and they try so hard to take that away from them.Then they laugh in your face when its finally gone, thinking its hilarious.

That is some sick twisted kind of enjoyment, thats for sure.

But whatever happened, happened. The end.

Tis' the Season

Well it's weird being away at school, I no longer get to put up the lights or put the christmas tree up. When I get home everything will be done, I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've tried my best to get into the christmas spirit by drinking egg nog, listening to christmas music and watching chrsitmas movie but it still doesn't seem the same. I think the one thing that is missing is my family. I miss them.

Here is a picture of one of the things Imiss most about the holiday season. When I come home for the holidays I am going to the festival of lights in Niagara Falls.

Finally I'm Back.

Hello fellow bloggers,

I am final back on the web. I must say I have been busy for the past few weeks. I am hoping to start blogging more often now. It's hard to say now though because I am in Univeristy and tehre is just so much work all the time.

I am finally adapting to the change. I am not really homesick but I do miss my brother.

A few friends from university and I went out costume shopping tonight. I have decided to be mother nature. We are going to an all ages not at a local night club. I am pretty excited! I hope my costume turns out good.

Well I should go and finish studying.

Peace. <3

A New Beginning

So... university is just around the corner. Seven days exactly. I am not really sure what to think at the moment. I'm alittle excited/nervous/sad/scared. So many mixed emotions. I would like to believe that I am ready to leave but I don't think I am. I do not cope well with change and this is alot of change all at once. Yes... in way I guess its good to do it all at once but really it just makes it THAT much harder to deal with. It will be my first time going to university, living on my own, cooking on my own, creating my own rules and staying on top of things. I will not have my mother keeping me on track and making sure I am doing what I need to be doing. I am an adult now. It is so hard to imagine myself as an adult. I CAN make my own decisions. I CAN take on responsiblities. I CAN live in a house without a parent figure. I am an adult.

I need to realize that it is time to move on in my life and that things do change. Time does not stop just because you are not ready. You just need to get up and go with it. I need to know that everything will work out and that I WILL stay in touch with the friends I was meant to stay in touch with. I need to remember that everything happens for a reason, even if you don't know that reason at that exact moment.

As much as I would love to stay in high school, I need to move on with my life and have my head held high. I need to look at the positive side of things. University is just another part of my life, it is a new beginning.

Odyssey

Hayley Westenra

"Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way"

Dear Ashley Jensen

Hilarious.
Sophisticated.
Amazing.

How is she such a good actress?

"Music is your own experience, your thoughts, your wisedom.
If you don't llive it, it won't come out your horn."
- Jazz Legend Charlie Parker.

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Don't Vote in Afghanistan?

I'm not sure if I completely undertsand the article I just read on CBC News "Don't Vote Afghan Public Warned"

Apparently there is an election soon approaching in Afghanistan however there are "enemies" which is how they are referred to in the article who are trying to stop this election from happening. They have threatened the people of Afghanistan by saying: "If you help the election take place, let your house be used as a polling station, rent your truck out to carry ballot boxes, you risk violent retaliation in the weeks to come"

This is not fair. The people of Afghanstan should be able to vote without putting their life on the line. It is a person's right to vote. They should not be threatened for voicing their opinion. Why has the world come to this?

We need to give peace a chance.

Chubby Monkey.

Lately, I've been cutting pictures and quotes out of magazines. I have a big stack of pictures that I cut out and have no idea what to do with them. It all started when I opened my closest with my bookshelf in it and a pile of magazines came tumbling down. Instead of putting them all back I decided that it's time to get rid of some. After 5 years of magazine subscriptions you create quite a collection. However before I throw them out I want to make sure that there is no pictures, or anything that I may use in the future. Each day I go through at least one magazine. I'm thinking of making a collage OR one of my faourite things to do is go to the dollarstore and buy magnets and then put the pictures on magnets and cut them out. This way I can get a magnet board and every so oftern change it up. I must say I probably had the coolest locker in high school. I would always have a huge collage on my locker door of just magazine pictures but they were all magnets. It looked awesome!

I made a sock monkey today. It took forever to sew but it turned out great. I love it.

A perfect ending to a long weekend!

Today, was a bit of a lazy day. I went over to my neighbors at 7:00am to let their dogs outside (I am dogsitting for a few days while they are on vacation) Then I fell back to sleep for a few more hours. It was pleasant. Eventually when I got up and out of bed I realized my family had decided to go out for the day and take Aaron to Memorial Park. I was a bit disappointed because I would have went.....they have swings there. Anyway, my grandmother called and asked me if I wanted to get a few things at the store with her. In the end we spent close to 150$ on supplies for next year. I am very happy, I am slowly able to check things off my list. After we were done shopping we decided to go out for dinner. We went to Happy Jack's. I haven't been there in ages, I don't eat chinese food so it never crosses my mind to eat there. However, they had a large selection of Canadian food. It was very nice, we sat outside on the Patio. We had a very nice view of the Peace Bridge and the boats going by. It was very relaxing and peaceful.

ciao.

Post House, here I come!!

Since the beginning of summer I have been trying to get all my stuff organized for September. Things to bring and things to buy. Here is my list so far:

Shampoo
Conditioner
brush
hairspray
hair straightner
blow dryer
face wash
vaseline
loofa
deodorant
toothpaste
qtips
perfume
toilet paper
toilet brush
toilet bowl cleaner
tampons/pads
bath matt
mouthwash
clothes drying rack
Pajama's
shaving cream
air freshener
make up/nail polish/remover
fabreeze
paper towel
garbage bags
measuring cups
strainer
pots/pans
sponges
cutting board
dish soap
plate/cups/bowls
dish drying rack
water pitcher (Brita)
more tupperware
tongs
whisk
spatula
wooden spoon
oven mitt
laundry- detergent, spray and wash, clothes drying rack
power bars/extension cords/ethernet cable
first aid kit
pillows
bedding/blankets
desk lamp
desk chair
storage containers for underneath bed
hangers
clothes hamper
computer
printer
TV and TV Stand
utensils
toaster
microwave
blender
coffee pot
can opener
scissors
kitchen hand towels/wash cloths
shower curtain
hand soap
hand/ shower towels
toilet paper
window fan
plants
floor length mirror
school supplies
3M Hooks

This list is more for my own personal use. As the month goes on I will be able to highlight which items I have already gotten. Only 35 days to go..
Oh boy, I'm scared.